sometimes you have to stop the waxing and waning of the moon
if the ticking of the second hand deafens you
if the changing of the moon blinds you
if you loose track of where your path to your dreams is
you must do everything you can to find it,
even if it means stopping time.
it said something vaugely like that. except in Japanese, which the old man had to read for me.
so last week I got reminded that I have 3 weeks to decide if I'm renewing my contract with Ye Ol' Eikaiwa. this sent me into kind of a tailspin of doubt and feakedoutness about the future.
on monday I ended up in Hibiya park sitting in the sun, watching people watch the cherry blossoms, making a list of ways I'm going to make my life better, and wearing my narc hat.
for reasons not entirely clear to me, the Japanese find me really approachable. and after sitting on the bench for a few hours looking at the fountain (actually not the one in the picture, a less painful looking one) and pondering the future and an older man walks up and asks me to scoot over so that he can read the inscription on the bench.
he then proceeds, alternating between English and Japanese, to explain that all the benches represent donors. The donors can get a little plaque on each bench that says whatever they like. he read and explained the one I was sitting on. it sounded something similar to the quote above.
It seemed quite appropriate and I keep reparaphrasing it in my mind as I think about my future.
I'll write more about my future plans soon but it looks like it'll boil down to: I want to stay in Japan longer, but not with Ye Ol' Eikaiwa. obviously, I'll write more on this later.