Wednesday, January 18, 2006

Direction

My apartment is a mess. I feel like I'm not completely unpacked. I still haven't figured out a good system to deal with the trash sorting. All sorts of things are spread out on the floor. I don't have a good place to hang my coat. My bike is STILL in its box in my 'kitchen.' I have laundry hanging up inside. By the look of it, my life would appear a mess.

but I am feeling great.

I tell myself that I should stop being so 'goal oriented' and be happier just hangin' in the moment, ect. but after this little job offer, my life has gained it's missing direction (even if it's short term). I feel like I have soemthing more concrete to work toward. and I'm really excited. and feel more stable and grounded than I have in a while. I feel like I have a plan.

this plan involves:
learning Japanese. including the reading and writing. not just the casual coversation stuff. all of it. I want to do it right. I want to take the same test I did when I was an exchange student next december. 3rd level JLPT (Japanese Language Proficiency Test) in December. It a plan. ambitious and exciting.

I'll have to move eventually. depending on what kind of work situation developes determines the location. but it's exciting looking at the neighborhoods and evaluating standard of living vs commute vs cost of living. also the possiblility of stealing some of my current students and where would be convient for them. so I'm thinking a lot and that's fun.

all in all, it's a good time. it's good to have a direction, even if it's only for the next year or two. it's a hell a lot better than before.

(also, this company is opening up an office in Boston and possibly in Europe soon. They have some really ambitious projects and therefore a great ride to jump on.)

3 comments:

j said...

Oh Kori, I am soo soo excited for you. And you should feel good about plans. I find that my painting is becoming what I had imagined and planned in my head for way before it really happens.
"you become what you think about" seems really true for me. I have spent years on lists and planning and imagining what I want. Whether it was a job, a family, a house, or my art. More power to your imagination. Seeing yourself doing the thing you want will get you there. I know.

Also know that there can be a reaction to any move forward. Just like a child who is learning to walk, he will find himself crawling again(for a short time) but then he is off and running. I have found that when something good comes along, that I can experience a small depression or a doubt that seems to test my resolve. But realize it is only a test and then get on with where you are going.

I hope that's not too too. I am so happy for you and I see only green lights.

love, j

Rob Alba said...

where are you and how do i contact you??? and *how* are you?

Dajii said...

Really really great Kori, You got the stuff to make this happen. See .. working two jobs can make the wheel turn. glad you know how to hustel kiddo. Very glad you are in control of your destiny. remember to charge the BIG bucks. Love ya tons and tons,

Dajii